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Sunday, November 27, 2011
Wishing Away...
None of these are expensive at all! (besides the Chanel, but that's special...)
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Tuesday, October 18, 2011
HIRE ME
valium sandwiches: stress (clipped to polyvore.com)
Dear all past and future employers,
Please HIRE ME. I am a hard working college student trying to keep up with the social demands of life and save money for they student demands of life. My dreams are large and I will do anything it takes to get them to come true. I am a good person. I am smart. I have proved this time and time again. I just want to make money. Please. I am so tired of this stress of worrying. Help me. If you don't want to help me for those reasons than just give me a chance and help me help you so I can help me. Please.
Sincerely,
Danielle
Elegant WordArt 2: What Is Life? (clipped to polyvore.com)
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Summer Epilogue: One month later
Grand Valley: I'm baaaaaaaack. Thank goodness. I was going to say the only thing I missed about that island was him, but as I typed it, I realized it was not true. There are a lot of things I miss and a lot of things I don't. Yet, he is the biggest factor. I wish I could stop thinking about it, but I can't. It's getting easier everyday. He did not break my heart, but he could have been a little more gentle. And I could have been a little more honest.
I am a different person now than I was last year. It is so obvious even to myself. I don't know how one person could change that much. Multiple things happened on that island that changed my life forever, in little ways and big ones. But I see the person I am now and I like her so much more. She's confident, outspoken, more culturally aware, brave, questioning, intelligent, mature, informed. She's ten thousand steps closer to being the person I have been imagining myself as that I thought I would never be.
thanks again, stumbleupon for bringing me this:
I am a different person now than I was last year. It is so obvious even to myself. I don't know how one person could change that much. Multiple things happened on that island that changed my life forever, in little ways and big ones. But I see the person I am now and I like her so much more. She's confident, outspoken, more culturally aware, brave, questioning, intelligent, mature, informed. She's ten thousand steps closer to being the person I have been imagining myself as that I thought I would never be.
thanks again, stumbleupon for bringing me this:
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Best Summer Ever! (so far...)
Yes, that is my conclusion of the summer now that it's all coming to a close. Although my blog here and my personal journal did not always reflect it, it's true. It was hard, then it got good, and now it's great and over but it was worth it. I couldn't have had a better summer adventure or a first job experience or a better first real life experience. Here are some things that made it great and wonderful and scary and hard and sad and happy and amazing all at the same time.
-I learned to be on my own
-I discovered hidden talents and desires
-I made money for ITALY next summer [oh my what will happen there ;)]
-I experienced getting hired
-I experienced almost getting fired (twice!)
-I wrote, A LOT
-I realized there are some things I can live with out 24/7 (cable tv -really!)
-I realized there are some things I can NEVER live with out (air conditioning and a library!)
-I sneaked into a bar (again, twice!)
-I got banned from said bar (for life? maybe? it's not really clear..lol)
-I got drunk with a new BFF :)
-I went skinny dipping in Lake Huron in the middle of the night (best view of bridge EVER!)
-I flirted, A LOT ;)
-I kissed, and then some ;)
-I was a total cliche
-I was a total bad ass
-I danced, laughed, and really truly lived for the first time.
I am young. 19. I have nothing holding me back or holding me here. Now is the time to do all of this and experience everything. That's how it's supposed to be. Living young and wild and free.
-I learned to be on my own
-I discovered hidden talents and desires
-I made money for ITALY next summer [oh my what will happen there ;)]
-I experienced getting hired
-I experienced almost getting fired (twice!)
-I wrote, A LOT
-I realized there are some things I can live with out 24/7 (cable tv -really!)
-I realized there are some things I can NEVER live with out (air conditioning and a library!)
-I sneaked into a bar (again, twice!)
-I got banned from said bar (for life? maybe? it's not really clear..lol)
-I got drunk with a new BFF :)
-I went skinny dipping in Lake Huron in the middle of the night (best view of bridge EVER!)
-I flirted, A LOT ;)
-I kissed, and then some ;)
-I was a total cliche
-I was a total bad ass
-I danced, laughed, and really truly lived for the first time.
I am young. 19. I have nothing holding me back or holding me here. Now is the time to do all of this and experience everything. That's how it's supposed to be. Living young and wild and free.
Monday, July 11, 2011
Oh yea, that's why I did it...
Today's discussion board question for HTM 290-02:
What would you say influenced your decision the most when selecting this internship? Was it the fact that it was paid or unpaid? Was it down to the location? Was it the opportunity itself? Was it the result of positive networking, or do you feel that you took the position simply to fulfill the class requirements?
Yes, I definitely needed to be asked that.
My answer:
I knew I wanted to work on Mackinac Island this summer even before I had decided on my major, or knew I had to do an internship. It was finding the job here, and my desire to work here, that led me to finding the HTM program and deciding that this area was right for me. I had been coming to the island for vacation many times over the years and decided that it would be so cool to work here, live here, and own a hotel here. My aunt actually worked for the Grand Hotel for a couple of years as a night auditor so she helped me get in here. I had applied for almost every hotel on the island months before I was getting ready for an internship. I chose the G**** Hotel because of the fact that it is the G**** Hotel. It is considered the best hotel, it is very up scale, it is the world's largest summer resort and has been named in many lists as one of the best hotels and resorts in the world. So what better name to have on my resume than the G****'s? Even though I am just a hostess at one of their multiple restaurants, I am learning so much just by being here, interacting with the other hotel employees and managers, meeting the owners, and living and experiencing life on an island that is a resort in and of itself. It's been hard, but I am sure I made the right choice.
What I didn't add:
I now want to flip my HTM major and Business minor to an HTM minor and Business major. Just because I hate how this internship locked me into a job I want to get out of. But that is only part of the reason.
I have never believed in Fate more than now, because of how I found this job, this major, and how it all worked out.
*I took out part of the name of the hotel to keep things private, though I am sure most people can figure it out. I cannot name the hotel.
What would you say influenced your decision the most when selecting this internship? Was it the fact that it was paid or unpaid? Was it down to the location? Was it the opportunity itself? Was it the result of positive networking, or do you feel that you took the position simply to fulfill the class requirements?
Yes, I definitely needed to be asked that.
My answer:
I knew I wanted to work on Mackinac Island this summer even before I had decided on my major, or knew I had to do an internship. It was finding the job here, and my desire to work here, that led me to finding the HTM program and deciding that this area was right for me. I had been coming to the island for vacation many times over the years and decided that it would be so cool to work here, live here, and own a hotel here. My aunt actually worked for the Grand Hotel for a couple of years as a night auditor so she helped me get in here. I had applied for almost every hotel on the island months before I was getting ready for an internship. I chose the G**** Hotel because of the fact that it is the G**** Hotel. It is considered the best hotel, it is very up scale, it is the world's largest summer resort and has been named in many lists as one of the best hotels and resorts in the world. So what better name to have on my resume than the G****'s? Even though I am just a hostess at one of their multiple restaurants, I am learning so much just by being here, interacting with the other hotel employees and managers, meeting the owners, and living and experiencing life on an island that is a resort in and of itself. It's been hard, but I am sure I made the right choice.
What I didn't add:
I now want to flip my HTM major and Business minor to an HTM minor and Business major. Just because I hate how this internship locked me into a job I want to get out of. But that is only part of the reason.
I have never believed in Fate more than now, because of how I found this job, this major, and how it all worked out.
*I took out part of the name of the hotel to keep things private, though I am sure most people can figure it out. I cannot name the hotel.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Whoa, we're halfway there...
...whoa-oh, livin' on a prayer! (thanks Bon Jovi)
Halfway done on the Island. Ready to get back to school. But it's funny, now I am actually comfortable here, made more friends, feel less alone. But I still feel useless at my job. I am good at it, obviously, I could train a monkey to do this job. I need something that requires more brain power than that of a peanut. I need a job where I am working with people I feel more comfortable with. Not that the ones I am with are bad, it's just so different for me. Which I guess is a good experience if nothing else.
I have officially decided to change my major. Instead of Hospitality and Tourism Management major and a Business minor, I'm going to be a business major and HTM minor. It might take me an extra year to graduate, but I think I can squeeze it into four years. Whether or not I kill myself trying is a different matter.
This "internship" has done nothing but confuse the shit out of me. It has made me even less sure of what I do want and more sure of what I don't want. I don't want to work in a restaurant ever again. I just don't know what to do. As soon as I've got down what I want and have made a plan something new pops up and I want that.
“I'm sick of following my dreams. I'm just going to ask them where they're going and hook up with them later.” - Mitch Hedberg
Halfway done on the Island. Ready to get back to school. But it's funny, now I am actually comfortable here, made more friends, feel less alone. But I still feel useless at my job. I am good at it, obviously, I could train a monkey to do this job. I need something that requires more brain power than that of a peanut. I need a job where I am working with people I feel more comfortable with. Not that the ones I am with are bad, it's just so different for me. Which I guess is a good experience if nothing else.
I have officially decided to change my major. Instead of Hospitality and Tourism Management major and a Business minor, I'm going to be a business major and HTM minor. It might take me an extra year to graduate, but I think I can squeeze it into four years. Whether or not I kill myself trying is a different matter.
This "internship" has done nothing but confuse the shit out of me. It has made me even less sure of what I do want and more sure of what I don't want. I don't want to work in a restaurant ever again. I just don't know what to do. As soon as I've got down what I want and have made a plan something new pops up and I want that.
“I'm sick of following my dreams. I'm just going to ask them where they're going and hook up with them later.” - Mitch Hedberg
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Sink or swim? I choose swim.
It's like I jumped in before I could swim. And I'm kicking like crazy as I drown. It seems like once I break the surface and get air another wave just comes crashing down. I can't keep up yet I have no choice. Keep kicking. Maybe i should have learned to swim first. But mow I'm in to deep. Why didn't I learn to walk before I ran? Oh yea, because I'm an idiot.
I have always been that way though. Not idiotic. But wanting to be at the top of the mountain without climbing. But how can I be able to breath at the top without learning as I ascend?
It's part of wanting to show people up and be the best. My superiority complex kicking in. I have to be better, higher, stronger than you. I will out do you. And no matter how hard it is for me along the way, it's worth it for the best, to be the best. So I'll keep kicking until I learn or grow gills. But either way I'm gonna survive and be the best.
I have always been that way though. Not idiotic. But wanting to be at the top of the mountain without climbing. But how can I be able to breath at the top without learning as I ascend?
It's part of wanting to show people up and be the best. My superiority complex kicking in. I have to be better, higher, stronger than you. I will out do you. And no matter how hard it is for me along the way, it's worth it for the best, to be the best. So I'll keep kicking until I learn or grow gills. But either way I'm gonna survive and be the best.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
StumbleUpon always knows what to say to me....
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Friday, April 22, 2011
Musical Inspiration
She is beautiful, talented, also on One Tree Hill, and I thought I would share one of my favorite songs ever. She is Kate Voegele and this is the acoustic version of "Devil in Me"
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
End of the Year Thoughts
I have 6 school days left before the end of my freshman year of college. 6 days. This year has gone by way to fast and in less than 2 weeks I will be on the island all summer, missing my friends, making new ones. I will be working, playing and hopefully have a much more eventful summer than school year. I have done a lot of things and grabbed a lot of opportunities in college that I normally never would have, but I still feel I missed a lot.
I have much to look forward to, and I plan on making the best of it. I will go to Italy to study abroad next summer. I will save half of all of my internship earnings each year and then go backpacking after graduation. I will because I can and I am young. I won't ask my mother for permission, but rather for support because I am an adult (a little lesson I learned from Gossip Girl last night). I can do it. I want to so I will. I just have to make it happen for myself rather than get it handed to me like I normally do. This is something that I have learned this year. That I can do it if I want. I can be independent. And I can not wait for my backpacking trip. :)
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Me too Woody, me too...
"In my next life I want to live my life backwards. You start out dead and get that out of the way. Then you wake up in an old people's home feeling better every day. You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your pension, and then when you start work, you get a gold watch and a party on your first day. You work for 40 years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You party, drink alcohol, and are generally promiscuous, then you are ready for high school. You then go to primary school, you become a kid, you play. You have no responsibilities, you become a baby until you are born. And then you spend your last 9 months floating in luxurious spa-like conditions with central heating and room service on tap, larger quarters every day and then Voila! You finish off as an orgasm!"
— Woody Allen
— Woody Allen
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
Greek
So my 19th birthday has come and gone, fairly uneventfully. My first college spring break is in full swing and I am at home doing nothing. I procrastinate summer job apps because doing them means the real world is coming. And that's just scary. I am halfway through the second semester of my freshman year of college and I have not seemed to do anything of significance. I have not partied, have not had a boyfriend or even a hook up, and my grades certainly have not stood up to the level of high school. Not that I am doing bad or anything. I have friends, I am part of student organizations. I am moving forward. But I moving to fast and I just want to slow down.
I just finished watching the series finally of Greek on ABC Family. It made me sad. And not just because of the terrible ending or complete out of the blue cancellation. But because I have been watching that show since the beginning and I guess it sort of set some expectations in my head. Expectations of what college would be like in addition to my own expectation that it would be different and better than high school. But so far, my college experience has been just like high school just with less stupid insecurities about my hair. I haven't done anything different. I am still an honors student, in a student council, not partying and doing nothing but watching movies on the weekends with friends. And there is nothing wrong with that. It's just not different. It's the same.
Greek of course like any TV show is a complete exaggeration since you only see anyone actually go to class or study like twice in the entire series, but still, the point is there. That college should be trying something different and fun. And I am trying but opportunity doesn't seem to be presenting itself at all. Opportunities, great ones, have come my way by they are school, and honor society, and future related. As great as those are I feel like I am missing out. Like the world it purposely only giving me these opportunities to force me into the future and adulthood to soon. Maybe it is. Maybe that's it. The adults running this world are making the consequences of the little things we are expected to be doing harsher to scare us away, they are putting more pressure on us finishing school and doing research and getting jobs and ultimately robbing us of our years because they need us to fix their screw ups. The adults in the world screwed up the national debt, the politics, the diseases they spread with out cures, and they expect us to figure it all out because we are the next generation and we have grown up with technology, we will have or be able to have all of the answers. So they rush us. And I feel rushed. And not the Greek rushed. Not the rush that will lead me to a thousand great memories and happy times. But rushed into the real world. I, and every other college student and most high school students are in the process of being robbed and there is nothing we can do about it. Is there?
I just finished watching the series finally of Greek on ABC Family. It made me sad. And not just because of the terrible ending or complete out of the blue cancellation. But because I have been watching that show since the beginning and I guess it sort of set some expectations in my head. Expectations of what college would be like in addition to my own expectation that it would be different and better than high school. But so far, my college experience has been just like high school just with less stupid insecurities about my hair. I haven't done anything different. I am still an honors student, in a student council, not partying and doing nothing but watching movies on the weekends with friends. And there is nothing wrong with that. It's just not different. It's the same.
Greek of course like any TV show is a complete exaggeration since you only see anyone actually go to class or study like twice in the entire series, but still, the point is there. That college should be trying something different and fun. And I am trying but opportunity doesn't seem to be presenting itself at all. Opportunities, great ones, have come my way by they are school, and honor society, and future related. As great as those are I feel like I am missing out. Like the world it purposely only giving me these opportunities to force me into the future and adulthood to soon. Maybe it is. Maybe that's it. The adults running this world are making the consequences of the little things we are expected to be doing harsher to scare us away, they are putting more pressure on us finishing school and doing research and getting jobs and ultimately robbing us of our years because they need us to fix their screw ups. The adults in the world screwed up the national debt, the politics, the diseases they spread with out cures, and they expect us to figure it all out because we are the next generation and we have grown up with technology, we will have or be able to have all of the answers. So they rush us. And I feel rushed. And not the Greek rushed. Not the rush that will lead me to a thousand great memories and happy times. But rushed into the real world. I, and every other college student and most high school students are in the process of being robbed and there is nothing we can do about it. Is there?
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
If the Internet and TV didn't exist, what would you spend most of your time doing?
reading books. they still make those, you know.
Monday, February 28, 2011
the big ?
I hate ?'s. Questions, uncertainties, unknowns. I like plans. I like to know my schedule and know what I am doing when. I hate if's. Even when I have plans so that no matter which way it goes I have a plan, I hate not knowing. The stress over this summer and my fall schedule is going to cause me great pain in the near future.
Can someone just tell me if I got the job or not already? Can someone write my schedule for me?
Can someone just take care of me?
Can someone just be there for me to share this worry with, someone who will be there no matter what, and make me not worry, and love me for my neurotic worrying? Why can't I have even that, just to help with all of the other worries. Maybe then I would be less neurotic. But no, I don't get to be that lucky.
Can someone just take care of me?
Can someone just be there for me to share this worry with, someone who will be there no matter what, and make me not worry, and love me for my neurotic worrying? Why can't I have even that, just to help with all of the other worries. Maybe then I would be less neurotic. But no, I don't get to be that lucky.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
Not everything is lost...
I don't know about you, but i had a great weekend. Some relationships, no matter how broken you think they may be, can be mended. Some relationships never end or change, rgardless of how often you talk or hang out or who you or the other is dating or are friends with.
Good times were had by all. And new shoes were bought. That can make anything better.
Now I am back at school and I am somewhat motivated. I am motivated to work, to go to class, to learn. But not this. This stupid essay. Essays used to be the easiest, most simple, thing in the world for me. Now it's just torture. I hate the fact that I don't seem to be as good as I once was, but the truth is, the profs are just harder on you. I don't know how to step up. I shouldn't fear what was once so easy. I just want this to be done. Honestly, I'm not being a compling baby, but even a small 5 page paper seems daunting when it's on ancient roman short stories that mean absolutly nothing to me. I swear sometimes I think the profs are just pulling these lectures out of their asses and make us do all the analyzing so they have material for the next semester's class. It's a cycle. They have us do their work. It's a conspiricy theory, but hey, those are fun sometimes. ;)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
Done
I can not be alone with my thoughts right now or I won't be able to sleep. At all.
I am done. So so so done. If you need a friend, act like and be one. I am done with this bullshit. I do not need you, person who shall not be named.
And the sad part is. I know part of this is jealousy as well. I don't condone all of your actions because I still wish I was right there along side you through them. I kind of hate myself for that.
I hate having dumb songs stuck in my head. I can't sleep.
My mind won't shut up. It's trying to dream before I am asleep. It is racing. Making up crazy situations that will never happen. Fantasies. Not all of them the "fun" kind, if you know what I mean. Just my mind in another life. One better than the one I'm in. I should write a novel of all of the stuff I come up with.
I just want some sleep.
I am done. So so so done. If you need a friend, act like and be one. I am done with this bullshit. I do not need you, person who shall not be named.
And the sad part is. I know part of this is jealousy as well. I don't condone all of your actions because I still wish I was right there along side you through them. I kind of hate myself for that.
I hate having dumb songs stuck in my head. I can't sleep.
My mind won't shut up. It's trying to dream before I am asleep. It is racing. Making up crazy situations that will never happen. Fantasies. Not all of them the "fun" kind, if you know what I mean. Just my mind in another life. One better than the one I'm in. I should write a novel of all of the stuff I come up with.
I just want some sleep.
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