Monday, February 28, 2011

so this is the answer to my last post:

Thank you stumbleupon :) 

the big ?

I hate ?'s. Questions, uncertainties, unknowns. I like plans. I like to know my schedule and know what I am doing when. I hate if's. Even when I have plans so that no matter which way it goes I have a plan,  I hate not knowing. The stress over this summer and my fall schedule is going to cause me great pain in the near future.

Can someone just tell me if I got the job or not already? Can someone write my schedule for me?

Can someone just take care of me?

Can someone just be there for me to share this worry with, someone who will be there no matter what, and make me not worry, and love me for my neurotic worrying? Why can't I have even that, just to help with all of the other worries. Maybe then I would be less neurotic. But no, I don't get to be that lucky.

Thursday, February 24, 2011