Nightmare!!

Okay, so I had this scary/odd/weird dream lastnight.

I was fast asleep and all of a sudden I was at my graduation cermony. Except our robes were black instead of red. I found this odd, and was asking friends why, but no one answered/payed attention to me. Suddenly the ceremony was starting, and all of my fellow graduates were sitting in place while I was off sitting in a seperate section off to the side, with all the loser pot heads who didn't have robes on. I asked the girl next to me why we were here, and she said we weren't graduating. And I was like WHAT?!?! Then the school counslor was announcing the names, and she didn't say mine. So I went up to her and asked her what was going on, she forgot me. So she was like "oh, and maybe Danielle Weaver" and I was really confused. Then the ceremony was over and all my friends were gone and all the decorations/set up was down and I was alone. Then my mom came up to me and we had to leave, and I asked where the family was and why they weren't here and she said they all were running late or couldn't make it. I was all confused and sad and was going to cry and then I woke up for school. 

The End.

Anyone out there care to analyze this for me? I would like to point out that it is only February 23 and graduation is not till June 4th. WTF is up with the jacked up dream???

Nostalgia

While watching the series finale of Gilmore Girls, again, I began feeling slightly-scratch that- GREATLY nostalgic of my old high school memories and it hit me once again that I am graduating high school. Finally!!! But at the same time, this show reminded me that real life is just around the corner for me, rather than a detached, far off dream that doesn't effect me. It's here, it's real, and it's right around the corner. And as exciting as it is, it's SCARY AS HELL!! I turn 18 in a couple of weeks. and I have only 50 some days of school left.

And with all this advice being thrown at me, enouragments, and adults telling me "wow, 18! You're an adult now!" "Where has the time gone" "Senior year will fly by" and "College is just a few months away, this will be the time of your life, ya know" I just want to scream YES I KNOW OKAY!!! I get it. Don't pressure me, or try to tell me how exciting it is, because I know. I'm feeling it. And I'm worried, and excited, and scared, and pumped, and ready and not ready all at once, so please do not remind me of how consuming these feelings are. For now, can't I just spend time with my friends, be a high school senior, a kid, and nothing more? For now?