It's like I jumped in before I could swim. And I'm kicking like crazy as I drown. It seems like once I break the surface and get air another wave just comes crashing down. I can't keep up yet I have no choice. Keep kicking. Maybe i should have learned to swim first. But mow I'm in to deep. Why didn't I learn to walk before I ran? Oh yea, because I'm an idiot.
I have always been that way though. Not idiotic. But wanting to be at the top of the mountain without climbing. But how can I be able to breath at the top without learning as I ascend?
It's part of wanting to show people up and be the best. My superiority complex kicking in. I have to be better, higher, stronger than you. I will out do you. And no matter how hard it is for me along the way, it's worth it for the best, to be the best. So I'll keep kicking until I learn or grow gills. But either way I'm gonna survive and be the best.
