Sink or swim? I choose swim.

It's like I jumped in before I could swim. And I'm kicking like crazy as I drown. It seems like once I break the surface and get air another wave just comes crashing down. I can't keep up yet I have no choice. Keep kicking. Maybe i should have learned to swim first. But mow I'm in to deep. Why didn't I learn to walk before I ran? Oh yea, because I'm an idiot.

I have always been that way though. Not idiotic. But wanting to be at the  top of the mountain without climbing. But how can I be able to breath at the top without learning as I ascend? 

It's part of wanting to show people up and be the best. My superiority complex kicking in. I have to be better, higher, stronger than you. I will out do you. And no matter how hard it is for me along the way, it's worth it for the best, to be the best. So I'll keep kicking until I learn or grow gills. But either way I'm gonna survive and be the best.  

This just about sums up my last 3 days.

I just want to sleep away the next 109 days. :'(

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Musical Inspiration

She is beautiful, talented, also on One Tree Hill, and I thought I would share one of my favorite songs ever. She is Kate Voegele and this is the acoustic version of "Devil in Me"

End of the Year Thoughts

I have 6 school days left before the end of my freshman year of college. 6 days. This year has gone by way to fast and in less than 2 weeks I will be on the island all summer, missing my friends, making new ones. I will be working, playing and hopefully have a much more eventful summer than school year. I have done a lot of things and grabbed a lot of opportunities in college that I normally never would have, but I still feel I missed a lot.

I have much to look forward to, and I plan on making the best of it. I will go to Italy to study abroad next summer. I will save half of all of my internship earnings each year and then go backpacking after graduation. I will because I can and I am young. I won't ask my mother for permission, but rather for support because I am an adult (a little lesson I learned from Gossip Girl last night). I can do it. I want to so I will. I just have to make it happen for myself rather than get it handed to me like I normally do. This is something that I have learned this year. That I can do it if I want. I can be independent. And I can not wait for my backpacking trip. :)