Why I'm Sorry For Us

Recently, a video went viral on the internet showing US marines literally peeing on the dead bodies of the Taliban. Many people see nothing wrong with this. They are just the Taliban, they say. Many people have been defending these soldiers, saying that they themselves would do it too. The Taliban would do much worse to us and wants to.

To those defenders: your reasons and defenses are exactly why these soldiers should NOT be doing this. 

Because YOU ARE NOT THE TALIBAN. You are an American soldier. You are supposed to have integrity, dignity, respect, understanding, and pride in you. And a person that would and did commit the act of pissing on a dead human being has none of that.

If you are one of these people or soldiers, do not wonder why most of the world thinks Americans are rude, ignorant, and arrogant. You just proved to them that you are.

You deserve nothing less than a dishonorable discharge and severe punishment.

A dead human being is a dead human being. A dead human being is not your enemy. He is a fallen brother.

We are not born with enemies. Or religion. Or hate. We are raised that way. We are innocent souls corrupted by outside forces. A baby knows nothing but wonder and love until they are taught otherwise.

A baby born into a family in the Taliban is brainwashed. They are shown hate, are raised with fathers that oppress their mothers and rant and rave in anger and resentment over another culture that probably has never even really touch their lives but is heard about by their fathers before them .

The only reason we are not like this ourselves is because we are told so. We are told we live in country that allows you to learn and explore and understand. We are brainwashed as well. Just to believe different things. 

For this your body should not be maliciousness ruined.

I believe that when a human being dies, our souls are released to a kind of heaven. A place where our souls can be free. Free of judgment, hate, anger, and grief. Free from our corrupted minds and bodies. When your soul is free, you don’t see or have enemies anymore. Your actions, your body, and your brain release you- as your most pure and innocent self. For those who follow a religion – this is God’s forgiveness.

body should be laid to rest respectively and to the wishes that the soul would want. It’s the very least we can do. Because it is time to forgive the body too.

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Yes, the Taliban committed horrible crimes against us, and try to today. It is only through education and freedom from religion that we can ALL learn and understand each other.

Yes, the Taliban don’t like me, and would probably kill me for the life I lead, but I still mourn for those dead bodies and their souls. And I am sorry that a soldier supposedly defending me committed such a crime against them. 

Whoa, we're halfway there...

...whoa-oh, livin' on a prayer! (thanks Bon Jovi)

Halfway done on the Island. Ready to get back to school. But it's funny, now I am actually comfortable here, made more friends, feel less alone. But I still feel useless at my job. I am good at it, obviously, I could train a monkey to do this job. I need something that requires more brain power than that of a peanut. I need a job where I am working with people I feel more comfortable with. Not that the ones I am with are bad, it's just so different for me. Which I guess is a good experience if nothing else.

I have officially decided to change my major. Instead of Hospitality and Tourism Management major and a Business minor, I'm going to be a business major and HTM minor. It might take me an extra year to graduate, but I think I can squeeze it into four years. Whether or not I kill myself trying is a different matter.

This "internship" has done nothing but confuse the shit out of me. It has made me even less sure of what I do want and more sure of what I don't want. I don't want to work in a restaurant ever again. I just don't know what to do. As soon as I've got down what I want and have made a plan something new pops up and I want that.

“I'm sick of following my dreams. I'm just going to ask them where they're going and hook up with them later.” - Mitch Hedberg

Sink or swim? I choose swim.

It's like I jumped in before I could swim. And I'm kicking like crazy as I drown. It seems like once I break the surface and get air another wave just comes crashing down. I can't keep up yet I have no choice. Keep kicking. Maybe i should have learned to swim first. But mow I'm in to deep. Why didn't I learn to walk before I ran? Oh yea, because I'm an idiot.

I have always been that way though. Not idiotic. But wanting to be at the  top of the mountain without climbing. But how can I be able to breath at the top without learning as I ascend? 

It's part of wanting to show people up and be the best. My superiority complex kicking in. I have to be better, higher, stronger than you. I will out do you. And no matter how hard it is for me along the way, it's worth it for the best, to be the best. So I'll keep kicking until I learn or grow gills. But either way I'm gonna survive and be the best.  

Greek

So my 19th birthday has come and gone, fairly uneventfully. My first college spring break is in full swing and I am at home doing nothing. I procrastinate summer job apps because doing them means the real world is coming. And that's just scary. I am halfway through the second semester of my freshman year of college and I have not seemed to do anything of significance. I have not partied, have not had a boyfriend or even a hook up, and my grades certainly have not stood up to the level of high school. Not that I am doing bad or anything. I have friends, I am part of student organizations. I am moving forward. But I moving to fast and I just want to slow down.

I just finished watching the series finally of Greek on ABC Family. It made me sad. And not just because of the terrible ending or complete out of the blue cancellation. But because I have been watching that show since the beginning and I guess it sort of set some expectations in my head. Expectations of what college would be like in addition to my own expectation that it would be different and better than high school. But so far, my college experience has been just like high school just with less stupid insecurities about my hair. I haven't done anything different. I am still an honors student, in a student council, not partying and doing nothing but watching movies on the weekends with friends. And there is nothing wrong with that. It's just not different. It's the same.

Greek of course like any TV show is a complete exaggeration since you only see anyone actually go to class or study like twice in the entire series, but still, the point is there. That college should be trying something different and fun. And I am trying but opportunity doesn't seem to be presenting itself at all. Opportunities, great ones, have come my way by they are school, and honor society, and future related. As great as those are I feel like I am missing out. Like the world it purposely only giving me these opportunities to force me into the future and adulthood to soon. Maybe it is. Maybe that's it. The adults running this world are making the consequences of the little things we are expected to be doing harsher to scare us away, they are putting more pressure on us finishing school and doing research and getting jobs and ultimately robbing us of our years because they need us to fix their screw ups. The adults in the world screwed up the national debt, the politics, the diseases they spread with out cures, and they expect us to figure it all out because we are the next generation and we have grown up with technology, we will have or be able to have all of the answers. So they rush us. And I feel rushed. And not the Greek rushed. Not the rush that will lead me to a thousand great memories and happy times. But rushed into the real world. I, and every other college student and most high school students are in the process of being robbed and there is nothing we can do about it.  Is there?